1.13.25: COVID Effects

I don’t want to sound like everyone else, but COVID messed me up. I’m not the same person I was before, and maybe that’s just part of getting older, but it feels different. I’ve started preferring quieter situations—staying in instead of going out, avoiding big social events that feel overwhelming. There’s also this constant undercurrent of not having enough—not enough time, not enough energy, not enough anything. It’s like a shadow that wasn’t there before. I’m not saying it’s all bad; I’ve learned to value simplicity. But sometimes, I miss the person I was before everything changed.