4.19.25: Inheritance

Does thinking about inheritance—ultimately meaning my parents have passed away—make me a bad person? I don’t think it does, but sometimes it feels that way. It’s not like I’m sitting around rooting for it to happen. It’s just one of those thoughts that creeps in when I’m thinking about the future, especially as I try to plan ahead or get my finances in order. The weird part is how tangled it feels—grief, guilt, responsibility, survival. I love my parents deeply. The idea of losing them wrecks me. But pretending the thought doesn’t exist doesn’t make it go away either.